Not as easy as you think

I know some days I may make accepting Jennifer for who she is sound like it was an easy thing for me. Truth be told it hasn't been easy for me. It has been very hard indeed. But as hard as accepting maybe, being without her would be harder.

Love is the stronger than just about any thing. It has been one of the many things that have kept Jennifer and I together. She has been so good to me I could never do without her. Some times we can't help but joke about it and well as they say "the best kind of man is a woman."

I just found some thing out that is very sad for me. My parents have been married for about 28 years and one of a few reasons my mom hasn't left my dad is, well she feels stuck. She feels like she has no other options open to her. If you have lived with my dad you would understand what a jerk he is. He is a person that has no respect for women at all. The sad part is he has 4 daughters including me. So I feel very blessed with what I have. Even when Jennifer thought she was a man she was very respectful and kind. Her father has a great respect for women and made darn sure all of his sons learned that (he still doesn't fully understand that Jennifer is not a guy, but that's another story).

So even with things being as hard as they are they could be worse. I don't feel like I am stuck with her. I may feel that way at times but never for long. Jennifer means so much to me. I can never see myself without her no matter how bad things may seem at times. Love is a wonderful thing.

Faith Helps

I have been thinking a lot on faith lately. I know that if I didn't have faith in some thing greater than me I would not be able to survive the things I have. The things with Jennifer would have been to hard for me to deal with. I know that I have received the strength I need from a higher power. As Jennifer has mentioned we are LDS. I do firmly believe in Christ and his healing power.

I know that faith is a hard subject for some people. But for me it has helped me and has given me the power I need to get through this life. I know that one day things will be put right. That day may not come in this life, but it will come. Some days it is hard to see and some days I do want to give up. But as long as I do my best to hold on to my faith, it gets me through the hard times. When I fail to keep faith I end up falling into a deep depression that takes me along time to get out of. I have never gotten out of it without faith in Christ to help me out. It is just a reminder for me to have faith.

I don't want you to feel like I am trying to push what I believe on you. But I do want you to know that there is always some one that cares about you. You are not alone in what you are going through. Heck you are looking at proof right now, this blog is proof that you are not alone.